Woe is me! (dont read if you're not very sympathetic)

Its Friday night and Im at home...alone....AGAIN!
Im so sick of this shit. And there doesnt even seem to be anything I can do about it. I just have to 'wait' until God see's fit to send a man into my life.
Im horny (STILL horny) the so called men in my life arent men because they have no backbone or too much belly for me to contend with so really Im up the creak without a paddle, or up the hornypole without a penis!

Now if I was like some people I could go out there and get my freak on but that would mean abandoning my morals and self respect. How many times have I been told to 'just sleep with him'!! Erm hello, don't I have to WANT to sleep with him first?? Shit if I slept with every guy that fancied me I'd be a walking herpes machine or on the 10 oclock news for the loosest girl in London.
And plus Im not just trying to sleep with someone to uncobweb myself but I actually want a relationship. The thing that most people have and take for granted. What is it about me that means I have to be the eternal singleton??? And what prospects do I have?? Some young fool around the corner that has a belly bigger than mine (Ick!!). He reckons he's mature but still lives at home and is so unreliable. He says he's going to help me...but not until next week!??!?! WTF! And then to put the nail in the coffin, he said "I'd help you even more if I knew I was getting something in return" CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT SHIT!!! He's supposed to be mature ( he keeps re-itterating this by the way) So as of this friday I havent bothered to entertain him anymore. He would come over here and chill and watch movies etc, but I cant be asked now, he can piss off.

THEN there's one closer to my age who reckons he wants to entertain me...YET HE WONT EVEN MAKE THE EFFORT TO COME AND GET THE COOCHIE! Now this was his idea in the first place, I'd sooner just stay non-fucking friends but he want/ed to take it to the next level. Pfft! Yeah right Im assuming in his head he wants to get down with me but whenever Ive suggested a time that my son is not around, he's busy or if he decides to come down its too late and the trains are about to stop running! Im just pissed with it all. After watching HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU' Its bloody obvious that that is the case. They have no intentions of doing anything with me but they need some excitement so they will piss about and SAY that they do but dont...phew!
Im so pissed, horny, upset, alone and frustrated that no man activity seems to be going right. Most of my friends are with someone so moaning to them is a no-no. So sorry blogger. I just moaned all over you, lol.

Im going to stuff my face with some chocolate chip ice cream!
Bon nuit.