I don't!

Wow!
One thing I have always wanted is to be proposed to. So when I was proposed to last night it was a let down.
It was a let down because I was proposed to by someone who is unsuitable (to my standards anyway)
SHIP (is what we'll call him) took my hand and asked me to marry him. At first I laughed, which is what I do in most occasions of seriousness and then I told him to get up. He actually looked genuine (which only just crossed my mind today) but I blew him off (no pun intended) anyway. I mean me...marrying a 21 year old who still lives at home with is parents and chickens (yes really!)
I thought it over as I do whenever he brings up the subject of 'us' and I cant do it.
Here's why:
*He's 7 years younger than me, making him 21
*He's not exactly my type (not taller, not skinner, not fresh haired)
*We havent even kissed let alone me testing the package
*He's friends with my brother
and because NNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Its a shame because me and him get along really well and he gets along with THEBOY. But he doesnt make me think 'yummmmmmmm' and he's young! I mean what does he know about anything except for playstation games and grime music. No...no...he cannot rock my world and I have to my discipline myself to not change my mind out of loneliness (and horniness!)

Its my only proposal of marriage so should I settle? (because I have this never ending fear that I will NEVER meet the one I really want and will be alone forever). Or should I wait around for the (semi) perfect candidate and watch my life pass me by because I was being too picky/cautious/stubborn????

I dont know what the future holds. It could be him, it could be someone I've not even met yet or someone I know and just dont expect but Im sure when the time is right, I will feel it and want to say yes not because the timing is right but because I love and fancy that person.

Ho hum...

Curry Mutton and Nice

Yay! I made Curry Mutton and Rice today. A west indian dish I love. Unfortunately I forgot to get plantain whilst I was out but nevertheless it tasted quite nice if I say so myself.

My mum and brother came over to enjoy the feast (so we'll see if the mutton was that good when I speak to them tomorrow lol)

On another note - I've been so tired with waking up extra early and working in the community all week but I've learnt alot and the girls were REALLY nice to me.
I've practically slept all weekend, only pottering around to do small things and popping out to the shops for minor bits and peices. But then I have to do a 12 hour shift tomorrow on the ante-natal ward on Monday and Tues so Im not looking forward to being on my feet from 8am to 8.30pm.
Some of it should be exciting because any minute a woman could go into labour and I may be there to witness it (eeeeeee!)
The only good thing coming out of all this tiredness is what I'm going to be learning and preparing for my future as a midwife. Get in!!!!