So pretty yet so lonely!

Lately I've noticed that when I come back from being out all day (at friends, or the funfair or
shopping) I come home and sit down and feel soooo lonely. And its not just a 'ho hum, woe is me' kind of
lonely. Its a dreaded 'oh god is this it forever??' lonely!! I've just got in from a friends barbeque and I had an alright time there (well apart from some foolish people being there but I won't go into that right now) but I left there, drove home and when I closed my front door and sat down that feeling came. Like I've been sitting down doing shit all day, there's no one coming to see me, I may aswell put on jammys and go to bed. I was close to tears a second ago but then I stopped myself because really I don't know what I'm crying for. Being lonely? I've cried about that already and it didn't change things. Its so frustrating to come home to the same empty place everyday; no one to greet you, moan to, put your feet up on *sigh*
I got told I was sooo pretty today (oh and a few days ago AND the person wasn't drunk) but when I hear that I just want to say SO!?!?
I'm pretty and what....? Pretty lonely is what I is

Eww, eww, eww!

Ive just been browsing (I'm bored, what can I say) on a black or 'Afro-Carribean' dating website! O...M...G! I'm going to be alone forever with a cobwebbed fanny, complaining to my orchids about the taxes!!!!!!

The men are soooooooooooo ugly! I think I've seen 1 out of a possible 50 men who doesnt make me want to gouge my eyes out.
I mean they either have odd shaped heads, or gigantic noses or just plain ugliness oozing out of the page. I've not seen one where I can say 'Yes I will happily lay down with you forever...'
Im now depressed and I dont even have any ice cream to get me through the evening, kmt.

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Wow! This page took ages to load on my crackberry. Jjust testing really, nothing fantastic has happened in the last few hours sorry.

For F**ks Sake!!!

Well my day was alright but now I...AM...SO...PISSED...OFF!

So first of all I find out one of my good friends (lets call her JJ) has moved her good for nothing, cheating on-off boyfriend back into her place. She has 2 kids with him (and he has 2 kids with his wife, yeah..dont get me started!!) and I know she loves him and its hard yadda yadda yadda but he is going to screw her over again and again like he has for the past 6-7 years.
Apparently she moved him back in February and she's only just told me (Im not bothered about that).
Im bothered at the fact that I was hoping she was distancing herself from him and getting him out of her system, but now he's back its like...like...its all back to square one. I know its bad to think this but I just want him to disappear!
She deserves so much better.

AND THEN My brother, who's ex girlfriend is a moody little self obsessed bitch who made him cry and cry and doubt himself has been hanging around again. My mum invited me over for dinner that my brother was cooking (which is a rareity) and I was going to go until she told me that 'devil woman' was there!!!

I mean WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE!! DOESNT ANYONE HAVE A BACKBONE ANYMORE?!?!? WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO GO BACK TO SOMEONE WHO IS TREATING YOU THIS WAY