I don't!

Wow!
One thing I have always wanted is to be proposed to. So when I was proposed to last night it was a let down.
It was a let down because I was proposed to by someone who is unsuitable (to my standards anyway)
SHIP (is what we'll call him) took my hand and asked me to marry him. At first I laughed, which is what I do in most occasions of seriousness and then I told him to get up. He actually looked genuine (which only just crossed my mind today) but I blew him off (no pun intended) anyway. I mean me...marrying a 21 year old who still lives at home with is parents and chickens (yes really!)
I thought it over as I do whenever he brings up the subject of 'us' and I cant do it.
Here's why:
*He's 7 years younger than me, making him 21
*He's not exactly my type (not taller, not skinner, not fresh haired)
*We havent even kissed let alone me testing the package
*He's friends with my brother
and because NNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Its a shame because me and him get along really well and he gets along with THEBOY. But he doesnt make me think 'yummmmmmmm' and he's young! I mean what does he know about anything except for playstation games and grime music. No...no...he cannot rock my world and I have to my discipline myself to not change my mind out of loneliness (and horniness!)

Its my only proposal of marriage so should I settle? (because I have this never ending fear that I will NEVER meet the one I really want and will be alone forever). Or should I wait around for the (semi) perfect candidate and watch my life pass me by because I was being too picky/cautious/stubborn????

I dont know what the future holds. It could be him, it could be someone I've not even met yet or someone I know and just dont expect but Im sure when the time is right, I will feel it and want to say yes not because the timing is right but because I love and fancy that person.

Ho hum...